The Ness Story

An impromptu Valentine's Day

2012-02-15T12:49:00.000-06:00

I have always loved Valentine's Day. I know, lots of y'all think it's just out there to make the card companies money, but I love all the red, hearts, and even the doileys. But, it always sneaks up on us since Ellie's birthday is right before it. This year, I decided the 4 of us would have our own little Valentine's night party. Yet, no plans had begun. We started off the day with Ellie making her daddy a card. The day was kind of crazy, trying to catch up the house from the party and family in town, and Ellie was on edge as well. I got her up from her nap, and decided we'd forget the party. That would mean a trip to Publix, cooking dinner, and trying to make it all seem festive. So, about 45 minutes before Eric got home, a new plan was in the works. It would mean getting us all dressed (we hadn't been out all day), packing a snack, diaper bag, and loading up, but it was soo worth it :) I called Eric and told him the plan. He was in and said he'd hurry home. The day was gloomy and kind of cold, but I got these 2 dressed in matching outfits.

And we ended up here....

This is where we spent the afternoon. Not perfect weather but it was a perfect time. I always thought winter as being drab and gloomy, but it is amazing how beautiful the world is, even when so much of it is asleep.

William was as snug as a bug with me and his eyes just kept staring up at the sky.

I think that letting kids out into the natural world is so important. But, it often takes a plan, effort because so much of our life is not focused on it.

Yet in the end, packing the bags, loading up, making the drive is all so worth it.

Racing daddy back to the "blue car".

We then headed to "the Barrel" for an early dinner. I asked Eric, "What would you have said if someone told you ten years ago, that on Valentine's Day night you'd be eating at a Cracker Barrel at 5pm in the middle of Alabama with your wife and two kids (who just both happen to be wearing overalls :)" Well, it was our perfect.

A few more cuddles before bed.

Our little love bug.

Bye-bye, Pappie.

2012-01-31T13:36:00.000-06:00

Ohhhh paci... Or as Ellie says, Pappie. What a history we have had with that thing. The night she was born she was a bit fussy, and you know, as new parents, even that little tiny newborn cry can make you tense after a while. Our nurse told me to just give her a paci. This stressed me out, because, back then, I read too many books and stressed out about too many little things (my how times have changed this go round...) Ever since then, Ellie was in love.

Around a year or so, I thought we were doing good because she was down to using the thing only to sleep and ride in the car. Until she started walking. Then she would just go get it out of her bed. Then I got pregnant and the battle was over. Paci made a full-fledged come back. I gave up. I didn't have the energy or desire to fight the battle. So, I said at 2, we'll just be done with it.

I know a lot of kids love them, but Ellie would have that thing going in her mouth all. the. time.

She even came home from Drew and Kelly's wedding with a paci I'd never seen before. At some point during all the craziness, she hijacked it from one of Drew's nieces... There was another time she was at the mall with my parents and all of a sudden there was no paci in sight. This was an emergency. They had to find that thing. So, my dad took Ellie and back-tracked their route. He said they were going down the escalator and she was screaming "Pappie, are you???" My mom could hear them 2 floors up. My dad felt so bad for her. Her prized possession, gone. Well, my mom looked down and it was there by her foot :) Crisis prevented.

Then there was the day that my mom and Kelly took Ellie to the dog park to give me a chance to rest. She came home and the first words out of her mouth were "Mar mar paci". Mar Mar is what she calls Kelly and Drew's dog. I asked my mom what she was talking about. She said, "Well, Kelly told me not to tell you, but Ellie was running around the dog park, and this little dog that looked like Marley somehow got it and was running around with it in her mouth like a baby." Lovely. They assured me they cleaned it and sterilized it super well...

So, we began telling her that when she turned 2, paci was going away. Well, she became obsessed with this. We would be out in public and strangers would talk to her and ask her how old she was. I would say she was almost 2 and she would say. "Pappie way (away)." Or, are you excited about your birthday? "Pappie way." Or even, what do you want for your birthday? "Pappie way." So we felt so bad for the girl that we started telling her about how fun birthdays were, balloons, parties, friends. So, we went ahead and got the whole thing over with.

It had to be on a day Eric would be there because I was dreading it so much. The night before, I almost cried thinking about how Ellie would respond to us taking away her most prized-possession. She had never fallen asleep without it, would instantly go for it when she was frustrated, and always had things in her mouth (or would lick or bite random things) without it. Hmm, lovely. But, I happened to be reading a book that talked about redemptive parenting. The way Christ redeems us by rescuing us from our blindness and sins, like a parent cares for a child who doesn't know what is best for themselves. I know, a little deep to be dealing with a paci, but hey, what can I say? It was a big deal in this house.

So, Saturday morning was the day. She had said she would send it to the babies in the mail. That morning, she woke up so stoic, not saying a word (so unlike her), wanting to be held. I think that she knew it was time. After breakfast, Eric got an envelope and wrote a note to the babies on it. Eric opened it up and Ellie dropped paci out of her mouth into the envelope.

She how sad she seems? They walked it out to the mailbox, and she wouldn't put in the mailbox, but she did raise the flag :)

Oh no, I thought, now the fun begins. So, I ran off to a yoga class and Eric gave her lunch and her first nap without it. When I got home, I took it out of the mailbox and tossed it in the trash (the night before I asked Eric what we should do with it, and he looked at me like I was crazy. "Throw it away." That seemed kind of sad, but once I thought about it, it seemed even grosser and kinda weird to keep it.) But, we survived. She has been really ok without it. She will bring it up rarely, but is fine. Because, now she is a big girl (Or as she says, a lady) and those are for babies, like WoWo. And, nope, she hasn't tried to take his, yet.

Speaking of WIlliam, I realize this is the 2nd post with no sign of him. He slept through Eric's party and the paci ceremony. But, he is doing great. We ended up taking him to the doctor because he seemed to be in a lot of pain. He is now on medicine for acid reflux and it really has helped. He is smiley, a big eater (almost weighs 12 pounds now and is barely 6 weeks old), sleeping about 5-6 hours straight at night, puts up with Ellie holding him, and seems to be a really laid back little boy.

So, now paci is gone, and life has gone on. It's nice to see that sweet little smile more too! (Speaking of, we have our first dentist appointment on Friday.... That should be interesting. I hope no fingers get bitten :)

Somebody's 30...

2012-01-26T13:40:00.002-06:00

This week we got to celebrate 30 years of life with this guy. A big milestone. Thirty used to sound so far away to me, and I guess kind of the boring years, but I don't think that it will be that way for this guy.

Eric, thank you for making each day so full and so happy. You are so appreciative of the smallest things and so easy to please. You make my life so much more fun, so much calmer, so much less chaotic. You always give me something to laugh at. You take so much stress off of me. You have such a servant-heart, never ever complaining about being tired or what you have to do. The second you walk in the door, you swing into action, whether it be picking up a crying baby, tackling Mt. Laundry, making a bored little girl giggle, or making a tired me feel so much better. People tell me that I seem to be adjusting to 2 kids so easily, and in all honesty, if it weren't for you, well you know what this house and life would be like :) Because of you I am rested, thankful, and so content with our life right now. Thank you. We love you so very much! All 3 of us.

Well, like I said earlier, Eric is so easy to please. Most people expect huge things, especially on special days, but he appreciates the smallest things. Taking Ellie and I to Sea World with his birthday money this spring, us stopping by to see him at the gym with an eclair and balloon on his birthday (they had a game that night), and a small party with special friends. So, I got together a little party to celebrate this guy.

So, to say Ellie is obsessed with our friend "Burt Burt" would be an understatement!

The entertainment for the night.

So after popping all the confetti poppers, I (jokingly) told Ellie to start picking up all the confetti.

She listened.

I love a good "crazy shot".

But not as much as she loved a little cake. More peassse.

I had asked some of Eric's friends from childhood, college, and here to send a little note his way. I was able to gather up a big bundle to give to him. This provided him with many laughs and I think I even saw him get a little misty eyed. Thank y'all for helping add to the goodness of his day, even from afar. We love you babe!!!

A Thursday Afternoon...

2012-01-20T20:50:00.000-06:00

I love this pictures of Ellie. To me, it is such a picture of girlhood. Pink tights, tutu, sunshine, art hanging, lots of crayons and markers, little feet dangling, and her very own pony.

This is my new favorite picture. Makes my heart melt.

Everyday moments

2012-01-18T13:36:00.001-06:00

Well hello there. So I finally decided to just skip over Christmas for now and live in the present. And the present is very sweet right now. Can't you see. We are all adapting well to life with 4. William still sleeps a lot, so it has eased me into life with 2 kids. Now, there are times when it is just me and I am outnumbered when the chaos breaks loose, and usually the "squeakiest" wheel gets the oil, but there are times which they can both be pretty loud squeakers :) But, all in all, Ellie has adapted so well. My dear friend Steph told me a few days before he was born that she would seem so much older over night, and she was so right. I love having a little "lady" (as she likes to be called thanks to her daddy) at home with me to talk to all day and keep me company. She can also actually be a big help at times too.

Love that sweet little face. He is sleeping well at night, about 4-4 1/2 hour stretches which is so do-able. Especially since Eric sleeps on his side and deals with all the paci-drops, spit ups, and late night diaper changes. I could not ask for a better husband.

At his 2 week check-up, he had already almost gained a pound and grew an inch from leaving the hospital. He was 9 pounds 15.5 oz and 22.5 inches.

It's funny because I can't remember when babies are "supposed" to do anything, but we can't wait to see that little mouth give us a smile!

Ellie's super enthusiasm to be on top of him all the time has died down a little because she realizes he's not too entertaining right now. Lots of sleeping. She always asks, "Eyes ope?" Soon enough sweet girl. When he is at a place she can get to him, she is all about being as close as possible.

This was our first outing, just the 3 of us. We went on a walk, had a snack at the park, and dropped by the gym to see daddy. It was a success! My mom and nana got us this amazing double stroller for Christmas and it is really making my life a lot easier right now. It is good to be able to get out.

When Eric doesn't have games, he has been getting home pretty early in the afternoons, and this little girl has been loving every second of it.

Exercising with her daddy. She has been his little workout buddy. A new YMCA opened right by us, so that has been there little outing together lately to get Ellie out of the house and the chance to be around some kids in the baby gym- she loves it.

Like I said, as close as possible.

First real bath (actually 2nd, but we forgot to snap a pic. Funny how that seems to happen a lot these days...)

The other day Ellie really wanted me to put "WoWo" in his chair like hers that Grammy and Papaw got him. So, I thought that would be a great time to take a few pictures of him, since I hadn't probably snapped one in over a week. As soon as I get him situated, someone (who usually runs from the camera) decided she wanted to sit with aka on top of, him. So, Ellie got a photo shoot in the chair too.

Almost a month old!

And, while I was on the floor, I thought I'd snap a shot of his room to show y'all. This is above his crib.

Ellie also seems to all of a sudden want to pick out certain things to wear. This girl loves her some boots, ever since she realized that that was what Nini likes to wear :) She also has been loving dresses and skirts these days and just had to wear this one to playgroup today. It's a good twirly one, and this girl loves to twirl.

Little miss will be 2 next month!!! (And her daddy 30 next week :)

Well, there's a little look into what's been going on in the Ness house!

Meet William

2012-01-02T09:38:00.002-06:00

William Kingsley Ness

Born December 19, 2011 at 12:17 p.m

9 pounds 10 ounces, 21 1/2 inches

On December 19, 2011 at 12:17 pm we welcomed sweet William Kingsley Ness into the world. It was a grey and wet, yet peaceful morning. Eric and I arrived at the hospital at 6:00 am and I was induced around 7:00. It was a quiet morning, just Eric and I together. Everything went really well and routine. Around noon, I could tell that this little man was ready to make his appearance and 17 minutes later, he was born! I don't remember him crying as much and loud as his older sister, and he had a head full of dark hair. The moments that followed are so hard to remember. It's almost like your watching it unfold in someone else. It all happened so fast. I think that this time though, I had more of a sense of peace. I remember when Ellie was born, they handed her to me and later the nurse said she was worried about me because of the look on my face. I guess it was all a little overwhelming the first time. Eric and I were so happy. So thankful that our little boy was here and healthy. And, when I say healthy, I mean 9 pounds 10 ounces and 21 1/2 inches of a healthy baby, We were shocked to find out how big he was, especially since I was induced a week early. It was such a special time for Eric and I to spend just the 2 of us, and soon 3. We spent the afternoon just looking at and getting to know our new baby boy. I am so very thankful for Eric. He was such the calming force I needed all morning while being poked and prodded and becoming anxious as the time for him to come arrived. He also brought so much excitement and joy to the day. As William began making his way into the world, Eric just kept telling me he was coming and his excitement was contagious. It took my mind off of everything else and put it onto the only thing that really mattered at that moment, welcoming our baby.

So, here is a peak into our little boys first few days of life...

Ellie and I the day before William was born.

Seeing William for the very first time.

Eric and I could not wait to see how Ellie would respond to her new baby "Wo Wo". For those of you who have spent anytime around sweet Ellie in the presence of a baby know her obsession. Rocking their car seat, sneaking into their bag to find a bottle to "force feed" the little one, swinging the swing, noticing babies everywhere we go. We had told her over and over about baby William coming, and she knew to point to my tummy. But, we were not sure if she really knew that there would be a baby coming who would go home with her and be there for always. But, she did and has done better than we could hope. She was actually kind of timid when she came in and Eric held her up to see the baby. She was very interested, and still is. It is a little frustrating at times for her because she has to have such "gentle hands" with him and leave his paci alone, but she is getting the hang of it and loves her little "Wo Wo." And, I have a feeling he is going to be a tough, deep sleeping little boy!

BG was a hero the day William came! She came over before we left for the hospital (5am) to keep Ellie for the morning. I was worried about how Ellie would be on this day full of changes, but after showing BG around her house, reading books with her, riding the Carousel and train at the mall, and lunch at Chic-fil-A, they were the best of friends! Ellie had such a fun day with her and Eric and I could rest assured that she was having a happy day. Thank you SO much Denise for all of your help!

Ellie with our nurse. She has delivered both of our babies!

Ellie could not wait to put that car seat to use!

Here we go! A family of four now!

Welcome Home!

We have had a lot of these sweet little moments around our home the past 2 weeks.

First bath.

One thing about this being our second child, is that you have a sense of normality in your life still. Things are different, but you have been there before. Ellie reminds me of this day after day. We are thankful for how well our little man has done since being home. He is eating well, just a lot and sleeping about 3 and a half to 5 hours at night. He likes to be held and is content most of the time. He is such a little cuddly thing and makes the sweetest faces after a meal. I am getting used to nursing again and Eric and I are getting used to segmented sleeping again :) We are thankful for all of the help our families have been to us and for all of the encouraging words/ call/texts from our friends! Thursday is my first day alone with the 2, but Ellie insists she will be my helper :)

A few of my favorite things...

2011-12-17T11:27:00.000-06:00

Lazy mornings around the house.

Unexpected little snow flurries. (No matter how short lived they are.)

Ellie putting the babies to bed before it's her turn.

Exploring the gardens.

Picnics.

Meeting new friends.

A Cindy Lou inspired hair-do.

Finding a tree together.

Ellie in her red coat.

Ellie loving on Nini.

My tree loader,

Decorating the tree.

Just sitting and looking at the tree at night.

Christmas treats.

This little bundle, waiting to get to the walk through Nativity.

Heat and cookies after the Nativity walk.

The star.

Ellie trying to sneak into Drew and Kelly's Christmas card picture.

The light of our lives. Haha.

Begining to learn about the reason behind all the Christmas magic.

How funny she thinks I am...

Starting the day this happy.

Thousands of lights at the zoo and Ellie's love of them. Her words "more, more".

Our snow bunny.

Pom pom hats.

That little profile, espeically the nose.

Just them.

Choosing to give thanks

2011-12-14T21:49:00.001-06:00

Well now, I think I have finally caught my breath. Life has been very full. Full of happy things. Full of family. Full of a super busy little girl. Full of thoughts about becoming a family of four. Full days of being achy and tired. Full days of missing my husband whose schedule these days can be a bit intense.

But we are here. We are trying our best to give thanks, even still, despite the things I don't really want to be thankful for.

This pregnancy has worn on me and especially my back (yet thankful for a healthy pregnancy and supposedly big baby boy on the way.)
Our little girl is more active and heavier than ever (yet thankful for a healthy, in so many ways, little girl.)

Eric has been gone most nights this month, including a 5 day tournament in AZ(which they won by the way :) (yet thankful that he has a great job.)

That leaves me being full time mom a lot of days, trying to figure out this little girl (yet thankful for a momma who would come and live with us for 3 weeks while Eric was gone/busy= clean laundry and dishes, dinner every night, someone to talk to, entertainer for Ellie, and a lot less lifting of Ellie/a much happier back :)

So, even today, I am still trying to see my circumstances through the lens of thankfulness. Well, obviously I am a little behind here. All this is packed up and the red and green is taking its spot, but I am thankful that this is my blog, and I can get behind and it's ok...! So, before the baby comes, I want to catch up on where we are.

Which, on Monday, the 19th we will become a family of 4 as William enters the world, unless of course, he decides to come early! The doctor said he is looking big so we are going to be induced early (Christmas is the actual due date.) So pray for us in the days to come. We are so excited to meet our sweet boy and all be home together in time for Christmas!

So, back to Thanksgiving. It was a great weekend. Both our families plus my grandparents were here to celebrate together.

My little helper striking a pose. She loves to drag a chair over and help in the kitchen.

Ellie and Grammy working away. Eric's mom was sweet and came down early to help get things going for the big day.

We also got to celebrate Nana's birthday with her!

Just out doing a little last minute grocery shopping Thanksgiving morning. Gloves are a must.

Oh, I just love the holidays...

So, I just sat down tonight to work on Christmas cards, and realized that by the time they came, I would be in the hospital and then the chances of them going out would be slim to none. But, this picture won, so picture this up with the rest of your Christmas cards!!!

We even squeezed in a trip to the zoo. Ellie with her 2 grandpa's. It was a pretty chilly day, but I love how her g-pa from Fl has on shorts, short sleeves, no socks (that is how he rolls) and her Papaw from IN has the jacket, pants, and tennis shoes... ironic :)

It was a memorable weekend with all of our family together. Which, doesn't happen very often. Now, we are counting down the days, waiting to welcome William! Hopefully I will get up a few more posts before then. We had a 24 hour nursery re-do, Christmas festivities, and life in general. Until then, I am telling myself over and over, every situation gives me something to be thankful about. So, note to self: thankfulness is a choice more than a feeling.

Christmas times a-coming!

2011-11-16T09:45:00.000-06:00

This picture was taken by Laura of LBR Photography

Just wanted to share a little bit of what I've been up to the past couple of weeks. A couple of friends and I are helping out with a Christmas outreach our church does. We were in charge of decorating the study. One of the girls, Laura, is a photographer and has a great blog where she has captured the room as well as given you a link to all of the tutorials we used. She has done it way better than I could, so I am going to cheat and send you to her :) I love how the packages turned out especially! We did a lot of the work together. My little projects were the pillows and felt wreath. Hope this gives you a little Christmas decorating inspiration!

Refreshed

2011-11-08T16:10:00.000-06:00

I love being home. I love when all three of us are together and home and I love having people in out home. Especially this time of year, home is so cozy and comfortable.

Especially when this guy's busy coaching schedule allows him to be there.

But it's also so so good to get away and spend a little time together. This was the first time we had done that since Ellie was born. Kelly and Drew were so thoughtful. Last Christmas they gave Eric and I a gift of two nights at Mountain Laurel Inn in Mentone, AL. And they offered to keep Ellie. Eric and I had been to this bed and breakfast 2 times before, way before little Ellie was here. It is a rustic, cozy little place in the middle of the woods, walking distance to a Desoto Falls and a beautiful canyon. The innkeeper is so neat. She left a sucessful life in Atlanta to go back to the mountain where she spent her childhood summers. And the breakfast's are so so good!

We slept in (all the way till 7:30...), ate at some really good places, did some hiking (very easy trails, might I add), and just sat and looked at the beauty of Fall and caught up. It was good to have so much time together to just talk and refocus on the good things of life. Especially with the full days to come of basketball games, holidays, and a new baby!!!

It was such a much needed, refreshing weekend. I thought it would be so weird not to be with Ellie for the first time, but I knew she was in good hands. At dinner on Friday, I told Eric it was so nice. We just left Ellie with Drew and didn't have to leave one direction for them. They just know her, her little hand signals, her words, her routines, all that. We are so thankful for them.

Well, Eric had to get a little rock climb in before the sunset and we headed to dinner.

We came away from the weekend refreshed and reminded of what it was we loved so very much about each other.

Ending October

2011-11-02T14:19:00.000-05:00

Look at that color! This is just a little peak into the weekend Eric and I got to spend together in Mentone. I have more pictures to come soon! Just thought I'd start it off with something so lovely and fallish.

We have had a lot of fun this fall letting Ellie experience the things that this season brings.

Like carving a pumpkin. Ellie really was not too happy about it. You see, she was just happily ~~washing the dishes~~ making a huge soap and water mess in the kitchen sink after helping me bake and was not happy when we quit to go out and do the pumpkin.

But, once she saw her daddy's enthusiasm and serious pumpkin carving skills, her mood lightened up a bit...!

We also got to go to a costume party with our playgroup. Here, Ellie is hanging with little Walker.

Us moms were really optimistic thinking we could pile up all the kids on the couch for a group picture. Ellie thought this process was quite funny.

Ellie also got to experience lots of interesting little things that came to the door for candy.

Kelly, Drew, and Marley came over to get in on the good times.

It's amazing how happy a dum dum can make a child.

Getting in some skyping time with Grammy.

What does a monkey say?

Surprisingly, Ellie was a little timid about the kids coming to the door. So, she and Harvey took it in from inside the doorway.

Drew trying to chorrale the monkey and lady bug.

Ellie ended the night skyping with her "cousin" (Drew & Kel's niece) Amanda all the way over in Japan. Ellie was enthralled by her and had to crawl up as close as she could get to the screen. By this point, she had ditched the monkey outfit. She wore it all night and was so timid about the people who came by, but once she took it off, leaving only a shirt, shoes, and a diaper, she became the welcome committee. She ran out the door to see people (strangers) several times in this get up. In the cold. Who knows what those people were thinking... Oh well.
We had such a fun week with Ellie. So much more of her personality pours out everyday. She brings so much sunshine to this home!

Little Monkey's Practice Round

2011-10-28T14:44:00.000-05:00

Today I took Ellie to Whole Foods for story time and trick or treating around the store.

I wasn't sure if she'd wear the costume, but the first little boy we saw was a monkey too, so she was all about it.

And, once she realized that if she'd open that bag up, they'd put stuff in it, she was game on.

Little monkey loaded into the car with one of her treats.

Worn out.

Pictures tell it best...

2011-10-26T14:08:00.000-05:00

Let's catch up. Shall we? Here is a glimpse into fall thus far in pictures. Way more fun than words anyway :)

Good morning little sunshine!

Welcome committee

Breakfast date

I turned 28 so Eric took the day off to be with his girls. We went flower shopping

And these 2 did some landscaping for me

My friend Carly got married

And Ellie overtook the dance floor. Eric had to escort her off...

Her inspiration

And Lolly came to see us! We baked pumpkin cookies.

Ellie also got to head out to the pumpkin patch.

This is last year at this time!

This girl is an animal lover.

Eric with his final selection.

Kelly and my mom threw a fall-ish baby shower for us to celebrate the coming of little Will!

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Ellie loves her a baby doll.

This weekend Eric and I are going away for the weekend. It's my first time leaving Ellie since she was born. We are super super excited. Ellie is pretty pumped about a big sleepover with Nini and Bubba and "mar mar" (there dog). Hope you and yours are loving these fall days too!

The Big Red Barn

2011-09-28T13:32:00.001-05:00

A sweet friend left a book at our house one day after coming over to visit. Since then, The Big Red Barn has been one of Ellie's favorites and has played a part in her animal obsseion. So, on Saturday, since we had Eric to ourselves all weekend, we made a trip out to the farm. Ellie is all about some animals and so she loved being able to roam freely with them...

She was all about hugging whatever animal she could. I was thinking she was going to come home with some type of thing, but didn't want to be that mom stressing about the germs...

Who knew?

So, I was so excited that they had a little Shetland pony there, but the poor thing never moved. He looks a little rough, huh? Ellie waving bye bye.

Then we had a picnic in the shade enjoying the not so hot weather.

We had a fun day and enjoyed the weekend with Eric. We got to watch the Gators take another win and Purdue was off, so they didn't loose, so it was a good sports weekend for the whole house (ha- just kidding Eric!) Eric's parent's gave me a new camera lens for my upcoming B-day and I can't wait to try it out and share some pics! Slowly but surely, fall is getting here!

He gently leads...

2011-09-18T19:42:00.000-05:00

Time means more to me now than ever. Counting as weeks pass and our little boy grows bigger and more intricately inside of me. Seeing months pass and with them brings an older, more independent, more affectionate little girl. About a year ago, she was still...

mastering the art of sitting (look at those little thighs!).

just learning the joys of "exploring" (aka pulling stuff out from everywhere!)

learning to eat "real" food.

spending time in this thing.

and hair was just beginning to grow!

Somethings have stayed the same. Such as her love for sinks.

and the Gators :)

Yet as fall has begun, travels have slowed, and life in general has taken on a more consistent, steady pace, I realize that these past few months have given me more of an adventurous, curious, smart little girl than a baby. Note, I did say little, and I mean little little! I am not trying to rush it, but it happens. I love this age that Ellie is at. She is talking more and more every day. She is beginning to be more affectionate by giving more hugs and kisses. She loves to read (only if she can sit right next to you with a huge quilt :). She is funny and knows it.

I guess as she grows, I feel the responsibility for her well-being, her education, her soul more and more. We are at the age where discipline/training slowly begins. The age where her mind is always going and I want to fill it with interesting and stimulating good things. I am so blessed to be able to be at home with her all the time. So, all this responsibility falls on Eric and I. And I am thankful for that in many ways, yet sometimes it can seem overwhelming.

Tonight, Eric was sweet and took Ellie to church with him to give me some quiet time at home. I was reading my Bible and came across a verse that I had never read. I felt like the Lord was reminding me that it is not all me. Or Eric. It is Him. Only He can save Ellie. This verse revealed to me a very tender, compassionate, and understanding side of God. A side that cares so much, even for me, a mom staying at home raising a little one up.

"He tends His flock like a shepherd,
He gathers the lambs in His arms and carries them close to His heart;
He gently leads those that have young." Isaiah 40:11

To me, that imagery is amazing. God of the universe keeping little me close to His heart. Gently guiding me as I learn to care for Ellie.

This picture of Ellie sums up what that does for my heart:

It is freeing!
I can try and faithfully do what I feel I need to as her mom and Eric's wife and go on living my days trusting Him to lead.
And He has blessed us with much!

Telling momma about her adventures with Daddy out in the remnants of the tropical storm that came through.

Life at the Beach

2011-09-05T19:58:00.001-05:00

Well hello there! We are a little behind around here... We are getting tons of rain from this storm so it has been a nice day to cuddle up inside after about 100 days of no rain and 99 degrees. So, Ellie is in bed, brownies are in the oven, and I thought I'd catch y'all up a bit!

Well, our fall schedule has gotten going so life will be more consistent, along with blogging, hopefully! So here is our end of the summer beach trip. My Nana and Papa take us all to Ormond Beach each summer for as long as I can remember. So, Eric, me, Ellie, Kelly, and our 2 dogs headed down to FL for some good time with family and the beach.

On the road, doing whatever it took to keep Ellie happy. Eric always knows how to get a laugh out of the crew.

After 8+ hours in the car, we were all happy to get there. Especially Ellie... after someone snuck her a fudge pop... No names mentioned. We spent a few days with my dad at home before we headed off to the beach.

Ellie is 1/2 FL blood after all, and it was apparent in her love of the beach. She loved running out into the waves, topples into the water didn't bother her, and she tried to eat her fair share of sand.

This is the sunrise from our balcony. One thing that changes after a little one comes into the picture is you get to see more of these. A hidden blessing of rising early.

Nini gave Ellie her first pedi. This little girl never sits still, but she was so serious about getting her toes done that she didn't move a muscle.

Many of these trips were made. Back and forth. Fill the bucket up. Dump it out. Repeat.

Our days were pretty predictable. Up early, breakfast, run around the condo, read a few books, color, go through the sunscreen ritual, go to the beach, go to the pool, nap, lunch, beach, dinner, more beach. After dinner was a great time to go to the beach. Ellie was entertained this particular evening by this...

And this.

Not only can this guy pull of a mean round-off, he also has his first hole-in-one!!!! He and papa played a couple rounds of golf and during one of the rounds he made one!!!

Love you momma! So, I learned that cameras get foggy when they are in the AC all day then the outdoors. Sad. But I still love this picture.

Kelly begged me to do a maternity shoot, but I said just one...

Well, after a week, Kelly and Eric had to head back. But, Ellie and I got to stay for another week. That week it rained most afternoons so me, Lolly, and Ellie spent the afternoons out and about. These 2 are quite the pair... We spent afternoons at the bookstore, getting treats, hitting up a few stores, and some trips to the park.

Nana and Papa were never short on entertainment with this little one around. She was very entertaining for all of us! And she loved the time with them. Papa is quite the book reader! He was so entertaining to Ellie and even more to us.

I am so thankful that Ellie has 2 fun, loving great-grandparents! Thank you so much Nan and Pop for the wonderful time you gave us!! We loved every second of it!

We were sad that dad couldn't come to the beach with us, but we got some good time with him before we flew home. He took Ellie on lots of walks around the yard spotting lizards, feeding the iguana, Homer, and sneaking in snacks.

We were sad, as always, to leave mom and dad. It is hard having special parts of your life spread out all over, but the times together are always so so sweet. I love getting to see Ellie really get to know her grandparents more. Yet, we knew that Eric would be waiting for us at the airport and a week away from him is wayyyy to long! Ellie did well on the flight. I got plenty of people looking at me like I was crazy as I balanced her on top of my baby belly or as she flung her paci through the airplane up to the front, and plenty of "You've got your hands full..." but we made it home safe and happy!

We really had such a fun time down there that we won't forget! Now, we are getting the hang of our fall schedule. Tomorrow Ellie and I are heading to the zoo for a class on kangaroos and then Grammy comes for a visit on Wednesday! Lots of good things ahead!

It's been too long!

2011-08-16T19:16:00.000-05:00

Hey there! We are computer-less for the time being, so combine that with being out of town 2 weeks- we are out of touch! I wanted to get on here real quick to give a quick update! We had a blast at the beach. Ellie loved every minute of it. Eric is back full swing with school and we are looking forward to our favrotie time of year... Fall!!! I have tons of pictures I can't wait to share (I know, no one likes a post without pics... sorry). Ellie is getting so big. We celebrated her 18 month birthday last week. Can you believe it? And we also found out...

Ellie is going to have a baby BROTHER!!!!

Indiana and the Lake

2011-07-18T19:12:00.000-05:00

Hi there! Nothing like spending a rainy day under a rain gutter... (Yep, Eric was in charge here :) Summer is rolling along and the days seem longer and our time together sweeter! We got to spend about a week and a half in IN visiting Eric's peeps. Eric's family also took us to Lake Michigan while we were there for a nice little vacation.

Drew's sister, Beth, has the most full of life little girl! Ellie adores Amanda.

We also got to spend time with some of Eric's HS friends. We got to meet Matt and Niki's new little girl, Maggie, and Ellie got to play with their little boy Parker. Sadly we forgot to take the camera in... But Ellie loved following Parker around and getting into all of his stuff. We also got to hang out with Kelsey and her husband Kevin and their sweet Hallie. Kelsey was at the camp where I met Eric (happened to be our little match maker!) And we got super close. It is always so so good to see you sweet friend!

We also spent a lot of time out on the Ness' deck. Ellie loved the water table and pool!

Happy 4th of July!!!

Working on her game.

So after a few days hanging out in West Lafayette, we headed to Michigan. Their slogan up there is "sharkless" and salt free. They forget to mention the freezing cold water temp :) Growing up in FL, I love the beach, and it is pretty much just like being there- just colder! These next few pics capture Eric and Kevin's initial entry. (My hair never got wet the whole time:)

Going for it.

They're in.

And out pretty quick.

Eric, who could care a less about the cold temps. and Kevin then partook in some mad volleyball action.

This little girl didn't mind the cold water either! I was worried about her not liking sand... That was a waste of brain energy. She spent forever sitting, shoveling, pouring, and moving the sand.

We stayed in a cute little bed and breakfast type place in downtown South Haven.

Papaw, who I don't think is a fan of the chilly water either, spent his time in the sand with Ellie introducing her to the world of sand construction.

Playing with Grammy.

We headed back to IN for a day before heading home. Who doesn't love a little early morning swim in their PJ's?? Are we starting to see a trend when Eric and Ellie are left to their own devices????

And Ellie, being the sweet girl she is, insisted on helping us pack up. We had a great time and got to see a lot of special people. Thank you so much, Ness', for being so hospitable and taking us on such a fun, memorable trip!!!

As Summer Rolls Along

2011-06-27T19:47:00.000-05:00

I have noticed that during summer, things slow down. Aren't as structured or routine. Including my blogging, obviously... Well, we have had a good first part of the summer and don't want to forget it later, so here are the highlights.

Just thought I'd start out with something pretty to look at. More on this, so keep reading!

Well, to kick off the summer, Lolly made a visit. We really just hung out, sewed, cooked, and ate. Our specialties. It was too hot to get out and do much more. We loved all the time with her so much!

Early morning bubbles.

We also celebrated Kelly's birthday together!

And then, Eric's parents brought his grandparents, Ellie's great-grandpa and grandma Ness down from Indiana for a visit! Ellie loved getting to spend time with them. We are so thankful that y'all made the long trip for a few days with us! We loved every second of it.

Now, some of "Everyday Ellie". She loves rocking her new backpack around. (And Nini loves doing her hair :)

She is so funny... And she knows it.

She is super fond of babies (hallelujah!) My sweet friend Mellisa was brave enough to let Ellie hold her little Walker. Ellie loved it, as you can tell and brought him Sophie and books during their visit. Hope this sticks!

Still loves to eat! My friends all know this, and as we were eating dinner together the other night, as I complimented a friend on how delicious the steak was, I launched into a spiel about the "depth of flavor" one marinade had versus a different one. They said, "And where do you think your daughter gets her obsession from???" Touche'

And does not love the camera. She was happily playing in my ribbon stash until the camera came out.

Ellie also made her way to the science center for the first time. She loved the water table, and it was all fun and games until she started drinking out of the test tubes. Lovely.

She was so cute in that little apron.

And let me tell you, she loved the giant Light Bright. Who wouldn't?

And then came Father's Day. We had a relaxed day of church, lunch- Eric's choice (Moe's... Easy to please- love that about him!) A nap and then a trip to the splash pad. And then dinner with Kelly and Drew. Thanks Babe for being a better dad than I had ever imagined you would be (and let me tell you, I had high hopes!) You know how much we love you!

And meet Marley. Kelly and Drew adopted this sweet dog. Harvey and she have become quite the buddies.

Later, our sweet friends, Lauren and Chris, invited us to Smith Lake for the weekend! We were pumped! (That's where that gorgeous view in the first picture is from.)

Lauren, aka "Whitty" is an Ellie magnet. We have been friends with Lauren for a while and Ellie is kind of obsessed with her. And Lauren is so sweet and seems kind of fond of Ellie herself! Whenever she wanted to be held, her arms went up to Lauren. These two had lots of fun together.

Chris took us on a "sunset cruise". Beautiful.

The boys (minus Chris our captain.) Eric has met his match with these guys...

The ladies and Walker

Ellie got to take her first kayaking adventure while we were there. It was so nice to get away, enjoy great friends ( and food- there I go again), and the beautiful lake.

We load up later this week to head up to Indiana to enjoy some days with Eric's family as well as a trip to Lake Michigan! Yay for summer!!!

Summer around our house

2011-06-12T19:16:00.000-05:00

Summer... I've always loved this time of year because it meant water, trips, and a change of pace. Summers in Alabama are quite different from the ones I spent in FL, with a lake in my backyard and a beach a short drive away, but they are still special. We might spend our time at in the plastic pool out back, or in the hose, but there are still fireflies to watch, grilling to be done, and lots more time with Eric. We also are blessed with families who spoil us with trips, so beaches and vacations are still in the picture too!

So, to welcome the summer, record breaking heat and all, I love to decorate our house for the season. I grew up with a mom who, even though we had barely any seasonal activity where we lived, she was always changing our decor to go along with the "season". Here are some of the projects I have been working on lately around here.

Our first harvest of flowers!! Zinnias and sunflowers. Eric is an awesome gardener :)

Growing up, we spent lots of summers collecting shells on vacation. Eric has gotten to spend time with my family at Sanibel Island and the beach where all these came from. It just brought back really good memories as I pulled them all out and set them out.
I kind of go crazy and end up with tons. Eric made me donate half of my collection to goodwill...
I know I have one friend out there who shares my somewhat obsession... :)

A while ago, I made these curtains out of burlap because it is so inexpensive. I sewed strips of different lace on the bottom to add a little "cotagey" feel. I also love having banners up for birthdays and celebrations, so I decided to make a plain one just because.

I made fabric flowers for the tie backs.

That big black and white shell... Eric found it. One of his vacay claim to fames... :)

I'm sure most of y'all have joined the Pinterest obsession.... I love it! It is a place where there are so many clever, creative, and super cute ideas in one place. I saw someone make shelves out of pallets, so one day, driving home after taking some friends dinner, I spotted some leaning against a hotel dumpster. Eric swung in, some how loaded them into our car, and made these for me. He has become quite the handyman. On Pinterest they had them on a counter, but I had Eric drill mine into the wall.

So, there's a little look into our little home this summer!

Ellie Now

2011-06-08T19:44:00.000-05:00

It's Wednesday evening. Eric is at class and Ellie is sleeping soundly. There are rooms to pick up, laundry to switch, dishes to wash, but they will wait for now. Tonight I feel the urge to stop, and to try and capture our little Elle Bell right now. She is so full of life. Each day adds more and more to her personality. So Ellie, right now...

You are almost 16 months old. At your last doctor's visit (15 months) we learned that you had had a huge growth spurt! You weighed almost 25 pounds (75%) (gained 4 pounds since your year visit) and grew to 32 inches (90%) (from 28!) The doctor also told us you had lots of teeth coming in. I can't imagine what it is like for you with your little body changing so much so quickly.

You are walking pretty well now. You attempt a run every now and then, but haven't mastered it yet.

You are learning things so quickly. We can show you something, and often, you remember it. This makes it lots of fun for people to teach you tricks like raising the roof, pointing to lots of body parts, and showing us how old you are. You are also beginning to like playing with your baby dolls some. Nini made you a quilt for your babies, so you like to wrap them up and give them bottles.

You are a firecracker, always on the go, always into something, and very independent. You will give us quick kisses on the go every now and then, and get a little cuddly at night, but that is about it. That's why, the other night, when I peeked in on you playing in the living room it brought tears to my eyes as I watched you, very gently, place all of your babies and animals into your little pink chair so that they could watch Praise Baby. It's times like these when I realize that you are getting older and understanding life more. I pray that you have a tender heart as you grow that leads you to becoming a compassionate person.

You talk all day long. Not really using words, but you make sounds. Mama means anything you want usually a paci or food. You walk around the house making all kinds of sounds and Eric and I always talk about how we would love to get inside your little head in order to hear your little conversations. We know we will very soon!

You love music. In the car, if I turn the music down, you do the "more" sign. If someone is singing to you and stops, you again say "more".

One of your new favorite times has become watering the plants with Daddy at night. You want your watering cans filled so you can water the plants. You also loved to be splashed with the hose and are usually a huge, happy mess by the time y'all are done.

You are my little shadow. If I am cleaning the counters, you want a spray bottle and a paper towel to do the same. You want to put my makeup on, wear my headbands, carry around my purse, try to unlock the door with my keys, and talk on my phone.

You love to laugh and we love to listen to it. It is loud and hard. Lots of things make it come out. A tickle on your neck, looking at someone through the window, or anything crazy your daddy does to hear it. Most of all, Harvey makes you laugh. There will be times you are so upset about something that nothing will make you stop crying. Then, I'll pick up Harvey and make him do a little dance move or something, and you totally forget your tears and are laughing right through them.

Speaking of tears, I think one of the traits that comes along with some of the things we love about you, like your desire to explore and independence comes a very very strong will. When you want something. You want it. Have to have it. End of story. Whether it be my food instead of yours, to knock all the bottles of Tylenol of the shelf of Publix, to play with my lipstick or pens, to stand on the couch (this is an issue because you want to climb up on all the pillows like Harvey, but happen to be a little more clumsy than him at this point...) or whatever it may be, when you do not get your way. You get mad. Really mad. Tears, yells, maybe even throwing something or hitting. It's a mess. It reminds me that we are born into a sinful world. No one has to teach us to sin. Yet, it teaches me patience and consistency. Two things I need to learn. Two things that are very hard to get down (especially when everyone at the store is staring at you, waiting on your next move.)

The good moments outweigh the tough ones, although sometimes the tough ones take so much energy and come to mind easier on a stressful day. That is why tonight, I wanted to stop and think. To think about who you are right now. The little things that seem so everyday now, were at one time, momentous.

Ellie, you are really such a joy to your daddy and I, and in many ways have spoiled us. As of now, you are a great eater, go to sleep so easily and will sleep all night long, can entertain yourself every now and then, and are always making us laugh.

Each day as you are learning more and more about the world around you, I am learning more and more about myself, the places in my heart that need to be cultivated from selfishness into humility and gentleness. I guess it makes sense, the best way to learn something is through experience and practice, and Ellie, you provide me with plenty of experiences and opportunities for practice! We love you sweet girl!

Hello, Chattanooga

2011-05-29T20:09:00.001-05:00

Hi friends! Where has time gone? Our days have been filled with beating the heat and the tiredness from being pregnant... Hence the lack of blog updates! But, life is about to change because summer break is here!!! Eric is finished up and home! So, in order to celebrate the end of the year and an early Father's Day and a much needed change of scenery, we headed to Chattanooga for the night. Who knew it was such a fun, clean, and naturally beautiful place? And only 2 hours away!

We got there Saturday and found a little place for lunch.

Then, we headed down by the river where they have huge fountains for kids (and dads...) to play in.

Fun times had by all.

Then we made another fun stop at this huge staircase water fall where you could climb up and down.

There is nothing like baby Crocs.

This child has no fear.

After a swim at the hotel pool, we headed to dinner at a place called the Blue Plate. It had fancy southern food...Yum! This was my view as I waited on our food. Ellie loved all of the open spaces, and it made eating out way easier!

The Tennessee River at sunset. Eric thought it was so fun that we were having a "late" dinner (meaning 7:00). Oh, how things change :)

The next morning we headed to the Tennessee Aquarium and we are so glad we did. Ellie loved it so much. When we set her down for the first time, she was so excited, gasping out of happiness, as these next few pictures show...

Petting the stingrays- notice how well Eric executes proper 2 finger form that is strongly encouraged.

Penguins!

JAWS!

After we finished up at the aquarium and grabbed lunch, we headed home. Eric took us the scenic route. (For those of you who know him, this is a big deal. He's the guy that tries to guess what time he will get somewhere and not stop the whole way to make "time", while I grew up in the family that took an hour to go a mile or two (if there were neat places to stop or food to eat...)

It was so worth it. We drove up Lookout Mountain, through Covenant College, Ruby Falls, and then ran across this spot. No, not just a scenic overlook, but a hang gliding launch area. People actually jump off of that concrete slab there and hang glide...

She has gotten good at entertaining herself in the backseat.

It was such a fun time to spend together, just the 3 of us. Ellie is at such a fun age where she understands everythings and copies everything we do. She is so curious that new things are even more fun. Now, we are back, unpacked, and excited to have our favorite guy around for a while!!!

We would definately recommend Chattanooga for a quick getaway!

Oh, Happy Day!

2011-05-17T10:06:00.000-05:00

Yesterday, we saw this, 15.2 cm of a miraculous little life already underway.

And we heard a powerful little heart beating away, 159 beats a minute, so full of life.

You see, on April 19th Ellie and I spent a really fun day at the zoo with some friends. She got to play in the fountains for the first time and was a huge fan. We came home, took a nap, and Eric got home. So, we went on a walk. I was begging Eric to buy a test. He was in no hurry, he already knew. He had a feeling. I needed cold hard evidence (see I tried to cheat and take one without telling him but I was so nervous I messed it up...) He finally gave in.

And it told us Eric was right. There would be another member in the Ness family! That little face on Ellie really sums it up. She was not sure what to think of mommy and daddy jumping around saying, "Can you believe it?" Over and over. We couldn't wait to tell our family. Thankfully, they would both be in town within a week of each other!

We let Ellie walk into Kelly's house (where my parents were staying) with a Big Sister shirt on.

In this picture, my mom is saying, "Hi Ellie! Big sister..." and Kelly shouts, "Mom, they are pregnant!"

She finally realizes it. And, despite what that face says, is happy for us!! My dad on the other hand, he said he could tell by looking at me when I walked in. Gotta love an honest family....

Oh, I love this picture too (sorry Bubba!) My dad drug Ellie into where Drew was still sleeping. It took him a while to get it too...

Eric's mom came in town a few days later. Her flight got in at almost midnight- He was so excited he told her right when he got her for the airport! We tried the shirt out on Eric's dad when he arrived a few days later. After about 15 minutes of us waiting for a reaction, he said he read it but just never said anything (he actually had asked Eric if we were pregnant a while ago because he heard it from someone at the grocery store- it happened to be the day we had just found out. It was a fluke though. So Terry didn't want to pry too much! I get that!) We had Ellie wear the shirt on skype he asked who Ellie's big sister was. Men are so funny! :) We had a fun time celebrating with Eric's family, but we missed you Kevin!

Mother's Day 2011. It is crazy to think that the next time we celebrate, there will be two to hold! We are super excited. It sometimes doesn't seem real. I can tell that it will be different than when I was pregnant with Ellie. Days go by where I am so busy taking care of her that pregnancy kind of slips my mind.

But, it is so special. This is a little embroidery project I started working to remember the day we found out about our sweet little Button. I think about the days to come, and I have excitement feelings mixed with worry. How will I do it all? What will I do with two babies all day?
Breathe.
But, then I count my blessings, and the joy overtakes the fear. And I rejoice! For a husband who is my other half. A happy, busy little girl who will be dying to help. And a healthy little button, growing away inside of me, safe and sound.

I have been feeling pretty good up until last night. I never got that sick with Ellie, so pregnancy was no big deal, but if last night becomes the norm. ouch. Other then feeling tired a lot, things are good.

Oh, and when is the baby due you might wonder?
Christmas Day.

Easter Snapshots

2011-05-03T10:48:00.001-05:00

Here are a few snapshots of our Easter this year. We were happy to have mom and dad come in town for a quick visit to spend the weekend with us (we missed the rest of our family for sure!) We had a laid back weekend of just being together.

Lolly and Ellie spent a lot of time outside entertaining each other with the bubbles.

Before heading to church on Easter, everyone was sweet to oblige my request to meet to take some pictures.

He'll do whatever it takes to get a smile out of his little girl.

Not sure what they were talking about but I love how serious she is listening and how he is holding her little pinkie.

Mom has become quite the sewer these days. She made all three of our Easter dresses.

After Easter lunch, Ellie hunted eggs around the yard. She was quite good at it and was all about the snacks inside of them. She would shake and shake them. It was kind of funny, a few days later we were at a friends house and there was this little egg shaker thing. Ellie was so upset that I wouldn't open it to get the treat out... I tried explaining, but you know.

We had a great weekend. I was reminded on Sunday about how powerful Christ's resurection is and I saw it in a new light. The pastor talked about how so many people didn't believe Christ was alive, even after seeing Him. Even though it was promised all throughout Scripture too. It reminded me that Jesus keeps His promises to us.

I will never leave you.
I will provide for your needs.
No one can snatch you from my hand.
Believe in me and you will be saved.

And the list could go on and on.
That encouraged me so much.

Well, Eric's mom flies in tonight and his dad will drive down Friday so we are looking forward to having a good week with them! Ellie loves all the extra attention and people to love on her!

Thoughts on the Tornadoes

2011-05-01T19:03:00.000-05:00

It has been hard to sit down and create a new post about life in light of all of the pain people in our state have been facing. On Wednesday, we sat and watched, live, as an F5 tornado tore through Tuscaloosa wondering if we were next. We then continued to watch weather reports, the meteorologists barely able to cover all of the tornadoes happening at once. As night fell, we had no power so we packed up and went to Kelly and Drew's, only to watch more terror unfold upon Alabama. It was surreal. We were within miles from these storms, yet we barely got a drop of rain. The next day, the damage reports covered the news scene. Unreal. Destruction. Total devastation. People missing. Lives lost.

There have been many natural disasters across the world in the past years, but when one is so close to home, a few miles, it becomes so much more real. I was talking to a friend at church today, and it seems wrong to carry on with everyday life when for so many people, life is anything but everyday. Yet, that's all we can do, moving on and allowing these events to change us. Gratitude comes to mind. I have cherished my family more these past few days than I can ever recall. My complaints about this or that have been less. I have been touched by witnessing people immediately reach out to help. I have not seen one interview on all of the news coverage where that person has not counted it a blessing to be living or to still have there loved ones. Would I react like that if my whole world was blown away? I can only hope.

Please pray for our state. There are many people who have lost a loved one. There are many people who still have loved ones missing. I can not imagine that agony. There are people who walked away from their once home with a grocery bag of a few scraps of their life that they could dig out of the rubble. There are hundreds of people living in shelters unsure of what to do next. Children. Babies.

I have been thinking a lot over the past few days of how things like this can happen. Why. Yet, I see glimpses into this. I know God is sovereign. His ways are higher, much higher, than mine. I could come no where near handling knowing all that He knows. I can not see His total purpose in all of this. Yet, I see small glimpses.

Yes, our life will go on as it was. It won't stop even though it seems almost irreverent when there are people down the road with so much to work through, yet we will be changed by it. Grateful for all we have. Willing to sacrificially give to others who need it so much- clothes, money, time, dedication to pray. And an even more evident reality check that we are not promised tomorrow.

I do want to blog in a day or so about our Easter and other things that are worth remembering, but I'll leave with this.

"Because of the Lord's great love, we are not consumed,

for His compassions never fail.

They are new every morning;

Great is Thy faithfulness."

Lamentations 3:22-23

The Feelings Life Leaves You With

2011-04-19T10:08:00.001-05:00

The other night before bed, I sat down to write in a little in a journal Eric gave me the night Ellie was born. I found myself almost dreading sitting down to do it. I got to thinking about why. I love to write. I love to re-read things. I want Ellie to be able to read it one day so she can know what she was like as a little one. So, I stopped to really think about why I dread taking time to stop and record the moment.

I realized it is fear. Fear of leaving something out. Fear of forgetting. Fear of not capturing time as it really is.

I have always like to journal, take lots of pictures, and try my best to document our little life, but now with Ellie here, it seems so much harder. These past few weeks she has literally changed in front of our eyes.

From barely walking to cruising around easily. Knowing what is funny and doing it over and over to get a reaction. Remembering everything. Following directions. One day she seemed to still be a baby, the next, a toddler, a tiny little girl with a huge personality and even bigger will.

It seems as though we often remember and take lots of pictures on special days- you know, birthdays, Christmas, first steps.... But, what are so special, what makes our family what it really is are the everyday moments. Things that don't get a special day on the calendar or any other special preparation.

Like realizing she has enough hair for an up-do (ha). Ellie really making Eric and I laugh. Sneaking up on her to spy when she is being too quiet. Catching her in a pile of pink sprinkles.

At night, when she is calm and a little cuddly, she reminds me of baby Ellie. And then I feel a little sad because my memory fails me of so many of the moments I know that I cherished when she was that baby. My memory is not great. Oh sure, I can remember song lyrics and grocery prices and other useless things like nobodies business, but so many other things fade so quickly.

But, I have come to terms with the notion that my memory won't be full of tons of specific memories. Some will stand the test of time, yet many will slip away. But, I will be able to look back at different stages in our life and get a feeling of that time. I know I will. That is how it is with so much of my life. I can't remember details, but I get an overall feeling.

And I am becoming OK with that.

When I sit down to write, to recall, to remember, I will write what I can and enjoy doing it. Not stressing about capturing it all on paper, in words.

It might seem like a petty thing, but I think most moms and maybe even dads can relate.

The love for children is something that is so amazing. I never could grasp it before she came. So, I will accept this blessing, realizing the seriousness of the responsibility, but also embracing the wonderful, fun, tiring, funny, trying, proud, laughable moments it brings.

Like trying to figure out ways to keep my busy bee entertained.

Watching her mimic everything we do.

Loving to see the joy that the simple things bring her.

Learning to see the best in others as well as treating people with no bias.

Remembering always my first love, Eric, never letting a day go by where he doesn't know how much I love him.

Discovering a whole new world, at the 2 foot level.

Watching her clean.

And clean some more.

These are the things that make life so sweet.

Good bye fear. When I stop to remember, to cherish, to live "in the moment", I will embrace it with happiness. Not worrying about years from now when we are in such a different stage that I don't think I'll be able to remember this one, but finding joy in remembering.

Some days I am more sentimental than others. Obviously this is one of those days... This blog is definitely a place to help me remember our story, the feelings of a time that life has given to me.

Our First Camping Trip

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Last weekend, we decided to take a little time out of the norm to go enjoy the great outdoors! Living in Alabama, there is a really small window to enjoy spring because really hot days pop up all the time and way too soon.
I was a little curious, so to say, about how Ellie would sleep in a tent. But, let me tell you, she did great and it was a much needed relaxing night.

We got there late afternoon and after we set up camp, we took a little walk to the lake.

Ellie is now walking all over the place! She wore her squeaker shoes and they echoed throughout the campground. I don't think our fellow campers thought it was as cute the next morning when we went walking pretty early...

Kelly, aka, Fire Woman, stayed behind to "watch" our fire while we went for a walk. Throughout the trip, Kelly probably was working on that fire 90% of the time. She gets that from dad. However, her book must have been riveting, because when we came back, the fire was out. Keeping that fire going is a non-stop thing.

Enjoying the peace and beauty of the woods.

Not for long...

We grilled hot dogs on sticks and ate tons of s'mores. Once it got dark, we laid Ellie down in her pack-n-play in the tent and she went to sleep pretty easily.

While Eric and Drew contemplated the problems of the world and a few conspiracy theories, Kelly and I tried to figure out something about taking pictures at night (w/ no flash.)

Being out away from the craziness and noise of the world is so refreshing. Looking at the created world and peacefulness of it, I can't help but think of how infinite God is. Even still, I feel close to Him.
"You placed the stars in the sky and you know them by name, You are amazing God."- Chris Thomlin

Rise and Shine!
We made it through the night! This is the tent where all 5 of us slept. Yes, 4 adults and a little one in a pack-n-play. It was probably a funny sight watching all 4 of us try to creep into this tent in the pitch dark before we went to sleep. Most of the crew slept so well, the others didn't. (Luckily, I was in the majority. I was also the 1st one in and secured the best location!) When Ellie woke up, she thought it was so funny to see us all sleeping in the same "room" as her.

You wouldn't think it from this picture, but Ellie and Drew actually slept. Kelly, not so much. Every time I woke in the night, Kelly was looking at me wanting someone to talk to.

Ellie found Kelly's book and just could not get enough of it.

After we got up and had another fire, (Kelly- "We mine as well use of the rest of the wood.") We packed up and headed to Cracker Barrel. I know, we cheated. Next time we'll have breakfast over the fire and figure out how to make campfire coffee. This was kind of like our trial run.
It was so refreshing to spend a night out under the stars breathing in so much crisp, fresh air. I'm looking forward to many many more Ness/Troyer family camp outs.

Upon Waking

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Coming in when you wake up,
I see those bright blue, squinty eyes,
they're always shining,
always smiling,
always ready to explore.

The lamp comes on,
your eyes light up,
that tiny finger goes to work.
Guiding me to the little things
that adorn your cozy nook.
From books to bows,
to crystals and pictures,
there's so much we must see.

Yet, then, you stand up tall,
bounce a bit,
and then your gaze, it shifts to me.
You know that I will reach in there,
and in my arms you'll be.

Your rosy face,
still warm from sleep,
feels perfectly soft against my cheek.

That little mouth,
that truly is,
the perfect shade of pink,
is open wide,
pressed to my face,
to grant me with a kiss.

A sweet reward,
in loving you,
my darling, little miss.

In Fruitland Park

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Rest. Fresh air. Reconnecting. Home.

We had a much needed get away last week. We packed up the car on Friday after school and about 9 hours later arrived in Fruitland Park, FL. The little town where I grew up. I love going home. Birmingham is home now. Eric and Ellie are home. But, Fruitland Park will always be home too. My parents have a beautiful little home with an amazing yard and even better deck where we spent the week. A high school friend was visiting and he called the place an oasis. It really is.

It is such a special place. Besides being where I grew up,

it is where Eric really got to know my family living with us one summer,

where I could hardly wait to come back to during breaks in college,

where Eric proposed,

the last place where I went to bed as Emily Towne,

the first place news of Ellie was shared,

where Kelly was married.

where we will always love to come back to.

I know home is not a place, but people, a feeling you get.

That is why I love it so.

Ellie spent a lot of time in her pool.

Ellie became quite the animal enthusiast while there. My parents have three dogs, three birds, and my dad has an iguana named Homer. Granted they live on a big piece of land... We were going to take Ellie to the zoo one day, but we figured there was no point in it. Her favorite thing to do was to be held and point from one animal to the next being carried over to each one. Lolly was the only one who didn't tire of that game.

Pool time turned to bath time.

We are so a food family as Eric soon learned. There is always at least one seafood extravaganza.

And of course, projects too. I began learning to embroider while there.

Ellie got to tell my friend Heidi's boy, Lincoln, all about this pool business. He was quite impressed.

I spent a lot of time chasing after this.

We met in 8th grade and have been friends ever since. Heidi is one of those friends I never get to see enough, but when I do it's like we never missed a day. You know those friends.

Eric drove my dad's little convertible most of the week, usually with his golf clubs riding shot gun. However, he took me one night. We went out on a much needed, so special, one of those never forget dates.

We took the scenic route to dinner. You know, that's what you do in a convertible. We drove through blooming orange groves that smelled so sweet, past my childhood home, and over beautiful lakes.

View from dinner.

We took Ellie to Alexander Springs one day.

She was a fan.

So was this guy.

We had a picnic.

Played in the water- which is always 72 degrees. Too cold for me, but Ellie girl did not mind it at all.

Ellie also grew some teeth. Check out those top 2!

We got to spend some great time with my Nana, Papa, and Fran, my great aunt. Papa left us with a long list of classic must see movies and books to read. They have always been such a huge part of my life and I am so glad that Ellie is getting the chance to know and love them too.

Thanks mom and dad for giving us such a good week!

We are now back, unpacked, and settled.

A long week of unpacking, fixing fridge leaks, living a day without water, and trying to keep a teething little girl happy has made the weekend even sweeter!

Drew babysat last night while Eric and I went to prom. It really made me feel like a grown up.

Today we got everything needed for our herb and veggie garden and flower planting extravaganza.

Hope you all have a refreshing weekend too!

Even when I don't understand...

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It is hard to think that the images that cover the TV screen are real. Are happening right now. To think of the emotions that someone is experiencing right now. I can not even pretend to imagine.

I should be packing right now since we are heading to FL in a few hours. When tragedies like this happen it is always hard to justify going on with life as normal, when for so many, it is not.

I don't understand how things like this are allowed to happen, how God allows them to occur. I know this is an idea that has kept many people from wanting to know the Lord. I too wrestle with it often and have accepted this as something I will not fully know or feel sure of my answer to this side of eternity.

Yet I must trust Him and know that He is fully good. I guess that is why the Bible refers to child-like faith so often. There are questions that can not be answered where faith, being confident in the One we can not see or fully comprehend, must suffice.

Today I will do the only thing that I can, the most effective thing I could do anyway. Pray for Japan. Pray for the people.

Hello spring break

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One of the perks of being married to a teacher is that you still get spring break. Something to get excited about. So this afternoon, as soon as the bell rings, we are heading to FL to visit my parents for a week and enjoy some warm weather and sunshine. (All my hype about spring turned out to be empty... This past week it has been so cold you could see your breath and today is the first day we have seen the sunshine in forever. There has been tons of rain too, see above picture...)

Packing is much easier with a helper.

My style of getting ready to go: Make a list the morning of and try to get it done by 3:00.

Eric's Style: Make a list at least a day in advance, categorize it, color code it, review it with wife the night beforehand. We would be a mess if we both prepared like me. Thankfully, the Lord knew my weaknesses and gave me a man with a plan.

Last year at this time, Ellie was barely 4 weeks old. Look how little! We all needed some sunshine and a change of scenery so Eric packed us up and we headed to FL. Ellie did great and it was a much needed break. Time flies.

PS We made it here safe and (almost) sound! Eric is the most amazing road warrior ever. Ellie has been outside nonstop and has been loving every minute of it. We have been eating good food, visiting with good friends, Eric's out on his 2nd round of golf, and of course there are projects underway! I will post about the week and pics when we get back!

the nest

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This room has been my "winter project". It has been so fun to work on! Now, for those of you not into this kind of thing, this post is long with lots of details you probably won't care about! Just a warning...

I mentioned in this post how I had begun working on this room which has come to be known as "The Nest". Gotta love it. Well, this room is the first room I ever really decorated without much help. It was fun because I learned a lot about what "style" I like. I went into it thinking of painting the walls yellow, painting stuff red, having black and white, and lots of vintage-y stuff, but it went a whole other way. I just started with things I liked (the bed and fabric) and rolled with it. That is my decorating philosophy. I don't really go into with a detailed vision. I just find one thing I love and let it lead on to the next.

These are the frames I made earlier. To make them, I painted the frames (which were old ones I'd collected from thrift stores and flea markets) Aegean Blue (by Martha Stewart), drilled small holes in the front to lace thin wire through. Then, I stapled burlap on to the back, making sure to stretch it tight.

I had no idea what to put in this one so I used straight pins to pin up this old handkerchief.

On this one, I pinned this print. This is by Katie Daisy. I love this girl's art so much and would love to collect many of her pieces.

One of the hardest things for me was picking the paint color for the walls. I have had many failed attempts at this in the past. I chose Natural Twine by Martha Stewart and really love it. The bed was our one big splurge, but I am really happy with it.

The pillow were really fun to make. I used this tutorial to make the yoyo's that I pinned on to some of the pillows. This pillow is made out of burlap and I love the texture that it adds.

The rest of the fabric that I used for the pillows and curtains is by either Jennifer Paganelli or Joel Dewberry. I buy it off of etsy because it has the best prices (The b&w polka dots are from JoAnn's.)

Any old lamp can become cute with a coat of paint and I made a flower pin to stick on the shade instead of buying a cuter one.

This is one of the first pieces of furniture my parents bought. They gave it to us a few years ago and it was that light cedar color- not really my thing. So I painted it the same blue as the frames, picked up some knobs at Hobby Lobby and love how it looks. I know some people stress about painting "real wood" stuff, but unless it is like some really sentimental antique type thing, I say go for it. We sanded it a little and then just gave it two coats of paint (We didn't even paint the inside.)

This is one of my favorite parts of the room. These pieces of furniture are hard to find. After scouring every thrift, antique, and junk store in Birmingham we finally found this at Consigning Interiors in Pelham. I didn't have to paint it or anything. I just recovered the chair cushion. I love having a place to store and display things and most of all, a place to leave my sewing machine out all of the time.

I had made some of these for my living room and really liked them. So I decided to make a little bulletin board out of a bigger one. I just bought a large embroidery/quilting hoop, put fabric in it, pulled it tight, trimmed the edges. I use straight pins to stick whatever on it.

My mom came up with this great idea to store ribbon. I just bought a small tension curtain rod and it works great.

And no, everything in here isn't set up and clean all the time. This is more like it. When I am working on a project I usually leave all my junk strung out everywhere. And the fabric usually stays organized like this because of my little crafting partner.

Who loves hanging out in here...
So there you have it! It was a lot of fun and is one of my favorite rooms to be in! These projects were my nap/basketball night go to's. We now have a fun place to host company, work on projects, and hang out.
Now we have a place for our out of town friends to stay! So, come see us!!!

This week we've been cooking a lot of tasty things for dinner so I thought I'd share. (I'll put the recipes at the end of the post.) Happy cooking! (Oh, and I'd love to hear what y'all have been cooking. I always need new ideas!)

Monday: Chicken Piccata, Whole wheat pasta with sauteed peas and summer squash, toss with Olive oil and seasonings

Tuesday: Oven Fried Chicken (don't freak out about it being Paula D.- actually not unhealthy and no butter! I added some rosemary to the crumbs and it was really good!), asparagus, and mashed sweet potatoes (Baked them and pealed, then mashed them with some milk, cinnamon, and brown sugar)

Wednesday: Eric has class
Thursday: Mission's Dinner- But I brought these carrots and they were really good and cost barely anything to make)

Friday: Pizza (Publix sells really good pizza dough in the bakery section), bread sitcks, salad, and brownies (This selection is for Eric :)

Saturday: Mini-Apple Cheddar Turkey Meatloaves, roasted red potatoes, and brocolli

Sunday Lunch: Salsa Verde Burritos

Chicken Piccatta (serves 4)
8 chicken cutlets (or 4 breasts)
flour
4 tbsp. oil
1/2 cup white wine (or cooking wine)
2 tsp. minced garlic
1 cup chicken broth
4 tbsp. fresh lemon juice
2 tbsp. capers (next to the olives in the store)
4 tbsp. butter
8 thin lemon slices
- Put chicken in a ziploc and pound it thin. Dust with flour, salt, and pepper.
- Add oil to a pan heated on med-high. Saute chicken ~2 minutes per side. Remove
- Deglaze (aka pour in liquid and scrape bottom of pan) with wine. Add garlic cook.
- Add broth, lemon juice, capers. Return chicken to pan and cook until ready on each side.
- Remove chicken. Finish sauce- spread a layer of lemon slices in bottom of pan. Add butter and stir until it melts. Pour sauce over chicken and garnish with parsley.

This meal sounds complicated, but it isn't. Eric actually made it on Monday :) It is good for an everyday meal or good for company. If it is just us 2 I just use 2 pieces of chicken and half the sauce recipe!

Mini Apple-Cheddar Turkey Meatloaves

• 1 to 1 ½ pound ground turkey
• ¼ cup Panko

• 1 medium onion, shredded

• 1 medium size Granny Smith apple, peeled, cored, and shredded

• 1 large egg, lightly beaten

• 1 tsp. salt

• ¾ tsp. pepper

• 1 ¼ cups shredded Cheddar cheese, divided

(I got this recipe out of a magazine, but I add ~2 tbsp. of brown sugar, a little bit of Dijon mustard, and a little bit of curry powder)

1. Preheat oven to 375. Gently combine ground turkey and next 6 ingredients, and ½ cup cheese. Spoon turkey mixture into lightly greased muffin cups.

2. Bake for 16 minutes. Sprinkle with remaining ¾ cup cheese. Bake 5 minutes or until cheese is melted and a meat thermometer inserted into centers of meat registers 165.

Welcome home, so glad to see you...

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